Thoughts,all-day!

I just had a peek at my last post and it was like one month ago!I keep forgetting to update this very loyal "heart-listener"!Well,hopefully everyone is having an awesome Chinese New Year:)
I thought today was quite a fruitful day because someone actually kind of carved my personality just by having a conversation that lasted thirty minutes with me.I know its,amazing.Simply amazing.Okay,enough of the suspense.It's my uncle actually.A man who already has one feet in the coffin,the boss of a marine engineering company and a very contented and simple man.He joked,and laughed at me.I have to admit I did not felt good when he said I do not look like I can take Law and Management.Seemed like he was stepping on my pride the whole afternoon till he said this to me,"I know what kind person you are already." He said pointing to me confidently with a grin on his face."You are someone who wants to climb up quick enough but is so afraid so get down again.And the pressure that is pulling you down may just kill you someday."
I stood there,stunned.He was right to a certain extent.I mean I am an ambitious person.Success and power told me in the secondary school days that they weren't difficult to achieve.I rose to status in like three short years in my secondary school life and kind of excel in them?When you are up there,so many others just can't wait for you to get back down.Gossips,rumors and back-stabbers are just there to pounce on you.They said I was naive.I felt I was just being optimistic about these people.But he was right afterall,he was right.I did not like to lose.In fact,I hate to lose.I am a competitor.I'm beginning to like winning more and more.Maybe he is going to be right.One day when I fall and is defeated utterly,I may just take my life.Seems like I have to spend the next few days reflecting,then brace myself up and learn how to accept failures in life.Accepting is just part of the story,the moral of the story is to pick myself up after each fall.That is life greatest victory and triumph.All right,I shall stop here.

For now,off to basketball!:)